Life as A Single Mom

Happy new years to everyone. May 2010 bless you with joy and happiness. I want to share a poem that pretty much describes 2009 for me.

BEFORE I WAS A MOM

Before I was a mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a mom
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and teeth every day.

Before I was a mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

Before I was a mom
I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed or peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hour at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew I would love being a mom.

Before I was a mom
I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know the bond between a mother and a child.
I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night ever 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never know the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or
Satisfaction of being a mom.
I didn’t know that I was capable of feeling so much
Before I was a mom.

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